Several years ago I heard a voice inside my head. I knew that whenever you hear a voice inside your head to check it against scripture. Previously, I have heard Jesus’ voice enough to know whether it’s Him or not, as His voice was always explaining, building me up, or telling the next project to work on for Him. As John 10:27 states:
“My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.”
This voice sounded like Jesus, but it was louder and harsher. This voice said, “Your father is Satan” and laughed. I cried out, as tears flowed down my face, that my father is in Heaven. SATAN IS NOT MY FATHER! This voice was quoting John 8:44.
“You are of your father the devil, and the desires of your father you want to do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own resources, for he is a liar and the father of it.”
I started to carefully examine this scripture. First of all, this voice misquoted scripture. This scripture, Jesus talking to the Pharisees, states that “You are of your father the devil”, not Your father is Satan (although the intent of both are the same).
Jesus was not saying that they were born from Satan. Our Father in Heaven created all of us. This scripture is referring to the behavior of the Pharisees. Therefore, I knew that this voice was accusing me of immoral behavior, which in my case was sexual sin.
My sexual sin started when I was a teenager. I thought that masturbation was ok, since I wasn’t hurting anyone else. Besides, no one else knew about it. What a stupid lie that was, since God knows every nano second of what I am doing and thinking.
What a mess I was. After studying the Holy Bible, I knew that it was an insidious sin. Every woman with tight skirts, blouses that revealed lots of cleavage, etc. triggered my awful bouts of immoral thoughts. That’s why I believe that women can cause impure thoughts in men by the way they dress. Our society is immersed in sexual sin. Movies, tv shows, singers, half time shows in the Superbowl, music, books, plays, jokes, etc. It’s throughout the world. Satan and the evil spirits rachet up the intensity of sexual sin, which has destroyed marriages, split churches on homosexuality, influenced legislation, etc.
But I had read James 4:7.
“Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.”
I tried to resist these evil thoughts of naked women, but nothing changed. I finally had enough! I was mad, boiling mad! I screamed out loud (yelling) to Jesus that You said “Resist the devil and he will flee from you”, but that did not happen! As soon as I said this, I could feel this evil spirit immediately leaving my brain. What a relief! Finally, after all these years, I was free of thoughts of naked women! I was free at last!
Looking back, when I understood that there was a reason for everything, I started to ask myself where these thoughts came from. Was it me, God, or Satan? I knew that it was not God, nor was it me. I knew that impure thoughts were coming from evil spirits. Now, I knew (as well as you now) how to cast out evil spirits – use James 4:7. Jesus likes it when we use scripture in our lives, and when we quote it back to Him.
Then, months later I felt totally grounded into the dirt. My lungs were suffocating. I could barely breathe. It took everything that I had to raise my head and shout out loud for help from Jesus and The Holy Spirit. It was the most difficult experience in my life.
I knew this attack was from Satan, who had this immense, oppressive power that not only grounded me to the ground, but I felt like I was in the dirt. I needed help! Evil spirits can make life difficult, but Satan is a whole different level of destruction.
Keep in mind that I had been totally born again. I had experienced many wonderful miracles such as multiplication of food, physical healings, prayers with quick responses in the form of visions, thoughts, or audible words from God. You can read about these amazing experiences by ordering “Jesus Is The Light In This Dark World” from Amazon or Westbow Press. That wonderful period of my life lasted roughly 10 years.
After crying out loud to The Holy Spirit for help, I slowly regained my breath, energy, and strength. I could now stand up. I wondered what that was all about. What caused this attack? Was it because I had spent most of my time trying to help the homeless to know Jesus? Or was it that I had really messed up?
Then about a month later God allowed me to see in the spiritual realm two spirits totally white (almost translucent) in the image of a man and woman. The male spirit was taller than the female spirit. The woman spirit wore a dress, which was also white, almost translucent. The male spirit had his arm around the woman spirit, and they were walking away from me.
Who or what was the image of the woman spirit? I recognized her, because I had seen her before flying around at night in our condo in Des Moines. I knew that she was an evil spirit who had tormented me for years with sexual sin.
But what about the white-looking male spirit? Was this The Holy Spirit or Satan? I struggled with this question for months. Whenever I have a question, I find my answers in the Holy Bible.
Jesus was sparkling white in the transfiguration on a high mountain, which I think was Mt.Hermon in Matthew 17:1-2.
“Now after six days Jesus took Peter, James, and John his brother, led them up on a high mountain by themselves; 2 and He was transfigured before them. His face shone like the sun, and His clothes became as white as the light.”
I have seen Jesus, and this white male spirit was not Jesus.
I knew that it was not The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit drives out evil spirits. The Holy Spirit does not console evil spirits.
But in 2 Corinthians 11:14, Paul states:
“And no wonder! For Satan himself transforms himself into an angel of light.”
I now know that it was Satan consoling his evil spirit as they walked away from me.
But then I also knew that God never leaves you after you have been born again. We may leave God, but God never leaves us. Thank God!!! Thank you Jesus!
